Good morning. Eren here.
I didn’t sleep terribly well last night, but don’t let the picture fool you – I’m actually feeling pretty awake. I sketched that when I was on my previous medication and every moment was a sleepy one.
That’s right, I’m trying a new medication now! The previous one worked great for my particular combination of depression and anxiety, but left me so tired it was becoming a problem in and of itself. I’ve only been taking the new one for a few days now, but the difference is amazing. I haven’t had to take a nap since I started on it, which is pretty huge, and I’ve been writing, drawing, and cleaning house more.
Which probably makes this seem strange, but: I’m scaling back my update schedule for Midnight Moonlight to 1 per week. I’ll be scheduling those for Wednesdays starting next week.
I know it seems non-intuitive to be scaling back when I’m starting to feel more productive, but the fact is: a few days isn’t enough to judge how this medication will settle out in the long term. I’m a little bit worried that once I acclimatize to not being tired that I’ll loose some of my motivation – an issue that I hope won’t be the case, but is certainly possible. I was a lot more productive when I started the previous medication, too, just because not being depressed/anxious felt so good – and then the tiredness wore me down.
I’m not sure how it’ll work out with this one over the course of the next couple months, but I do know this: I’ve let so much stuff go that I’ve needed or wanted to do while I was on the previous medication that I need to take advantage of having the drive to be active while I can. There is a ton of house work that I’ve been neglecting, other stories that I’ve wanted to be posting, and just… life to be living. I haven’t gone out with friends just to shop or have fun in ages: I think I actually became more of a shutin as the previous medication wore me down than I was when I was afraid of crowds and public places.
Anyway, that’s the long and the short of it. I’m feeling pretty good, but as long as this is still a hobby I need to prioritize my active time a little better – especially now that I actually have some time wherein I feel like being active again!
Be safe, happy and well.